Episode #9

[Spencer Bledsoe]

It's a whole new ball park now. I have been going back and forth about my decision for hours. I've felt guilt, thrill, worry and a whole lot more based on my actions in the last 12 hours. 

But finally, I think I have my fingers on the pulse of this game again. I'm ready to come back stronger than ever and reach my original goal. 

Even if I have lost the trust of Yul and Bobby, I've gained the trust of Jefra and Mary, and those boys are going to want to keep me around unless they want a girl winning this whole thing.

I'm counting on that.

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Alright, so... Last night did not go at all the way I thought it was going too. Obviously I fully expected Ethan to leave and it didnt happen because Yul decided he would take a turn and go behind my back with Mary and Ethan to vote out Bobby. I learned all of this from Mary.

Yul has yet to talk with me at all since his cute little tirade into trying to gain power. i dont know if it is because he feels the need to control everything or what but I'm over it. I'm also typing all of this on my phone while I "hold the button" with a paperweight. Fuck you the system!

[Spencer Bledsoe]

Jefra and Cliff appear to be on board for a final four with Mary and I. I cringe at the thought of the final 3 having a girl. However, I also believe that if there is a tie tonight, which is expected, that Yul and Ethan may vote for Jefra. If they do, I will split from the final four and vote her out.

I can't have Mary making it to the finals. I wish I had won immunity but my mouse and paperweight just didn't hold out long enough, I have no idea what happened either. I went to take a nap and it just stopped pressing. Whatevs though, hoping to make it to the final five!